繁体
"ButIneverdid,"hetinued,hisvoicefilledwithexhaustion."Thedistagespeople.Itmaghesmallcratiltheybeeyons.Ourcallsbecamelessabout''''''''''''''''us''''''''''''''''andmoreabout…logistics.Aboutmyresearchbeing''''''''''''''''impractical'''''''''''''''',aboutmytiestoSweden,tomyMormor''''''''''''''''sworld,beingaburdelikeIwaslosingmyself.The''''''''''''''''Siyuan''''''''''''''''shecreatedwasreadyforShanghai,butViktor…Viktorwasnot."
eaunit.Viktor-and-Kateryna.Ourworldsmergedpletely.Myresearch,heralgorithms…theybecameentangled.She…shewasmywholeworld,Zhinning."
他说
最後一句话时,声音里有着一
ch11u0lU0的脆弱,让知宁的心都跟着刺痛起来。
「然後,上海的事情发生了。她得到了一家当地科技
的录用通知。一个她无法拒绝的职位。那是她的梦想。当时的计画是…我完成我的博士论文,然後就跟随她过去。」
「但我从未这麽
,」他继续说,声音里充满了疲惫,「距离…会改变人。它会将微小的裂痕放大成峡谷。我们的通话,变得越来越少关於我们,而更多的是…现实层面的问题。关於我的研究是多麽不切实际,关於我与瑞典、与我外婆的世界的连结是个负担。我
觉我正在失去自己。她所创造的那个思远已经准备好去上海了,但是Viktor…Viktor还没有。」
「八年来,我们不是两个人。我们是一个整T。Viktor-与-Kateryna。我们的世界完全
合了。我的研究,她的演算法…它们都
织在了一起。她…她曾是我的整个世界,知宁。」
"Thatphonecallyouheard…"Viktor''''''''''''''''sjawtightenedslightly."Itwasnotthefirst''''''''''''''''it''''''''''''''''sover''''''''''''''''call.Itwasoneofmanyechoes.Thepainful,finalnotesofasongthatendedmorethanayearago.Everyfewmonths,somethingesup-asharedacademicpaper,apossessiobehind,aquestionfromherfamily-anditdragsusbatothatsameargument.Theonewhereshedoesn''''''''''''''''tuandwhyIdidn''''''''''''''''tfollow,andIdon''''''''''''''''tknowhowtoexpinthatfollowingherwouldmeanleavingapartofm
"Then,Shanghaihappened.Shegotanofferfromatechgiantthere.Apositionshecouldn''''''''''''''''trefuse.Itwasherdream.Thepnwas…Iwouldfinishmydissertationandfollowher."
他停了下来,
地x1了一
冰冷的空气。